Bicycle UPGRADE

Big thanks to the awesome guys at Pedal Hard for taking time to talk with me about what I want to do with my bike. Also for not being assholes like those bigger bike shops

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Welcome to November

It seems like just yesterday it was August. I believe my many hours alone at my office and again at home have fast-forwarded the weeks. Thankfully I have stabilized my life and have settled into a pattern of being ok alone. No long story, just a lot of resolution in my life and final words to end any future communication one might think of having with me. Well, make that for two people, I guess. Looking back I really should have gone into therapy to deal with my insane issues, but I am at the point where I have a clearer look at myself. I just could not live without comparing myself to others and torturing my mind with my inadequacies. I didn't do that before. I forgot to look at how awesome my life is without some turd of a boyfriend or bitchy roommates. I still don't want to be in super social situations, but at least I'm not as prone to avoidance as before.

At a party on Saturday I dressed up as Mary Kate Olsen with flour on my face and fur jacket with leggings. Hilarious. With my first beer of the night a girl walks up to me and askes what I am. I tell her, and she looks me up and down and says "You might want to do something about getting those bones, ya know, exposed." Me from a few months ago probably would have cried. This me just said, "Well, I work with what I got." and thought how sad it must be for her to think that way and speak to people in that manner. As the night progressed I learned she had 3 kids, chain-smoked, and I'm pretty sure she drinks all the time. Maybe her bitch is her defense? I just avoided talking with her the rest of the evening.

I still am scared of the lingering damages Asshole 1 & 2 may have left upon me, but I look to the new year as a year for ME and not for some mean or lying prick. And no more dates from Craigslist. :)